When Gab told me that the um, YC in church or them higher-ups had decided that i ought to play Jesus, Ok i admit i was really really honoured. I mean like hell, i didn't even audition and i got the part? Just cos i looked like HIM. oookay.
(:X ok not supposed to say hell.)
Anyway the thing is, as the weeks got by, It kinda slowly sunk in... that it really wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. Most things never do i guess. It's sorta making a film. U think u got it all made once u think u have the ultimate script. But it slowly boils down as u start printing out the first pre-production paperwork that it hits you that things are't quite as easy as they seem.
The late nights, Very early mornings, paperwork, and phonecalls aplenty.
I think I'm digressing.Let's go back.
Anyway,AS I WAS WRITING, IN THIS CASE TYPING.
Jesus, isn't such as easy role to play. REALLY.
This isn't to say that i didn't do my actor homework and get into character as best as i could. Hell, Pang and Gab tells me for prob the umpteenth time that i speak to fast, and yadda yadda, i still walk like a punk out for a street blood bath, Jesus don't walk like a street punk. But it's one thing to take all these criticism when you know u didn't bloody well try in the first place.
But its quite the other to hear it when u given it your all, the all i'm talking about is when all you wanna see next when you open your front door, is your bed, and fall into oblivion for the next say 12 hours?
Hey guys, if you're reading this, don't bloody take it personally you hear? otherwise the next thing u'll see in Vietnam is a cute little metallic tank coming up on your ass, and blowing chunks at ya.
Ah well, Maybe it's right from the start that i wasn't such a good catholic in the first place that mighta done it. No offence, but it really is kinda hard to really really believe in something that you can't have a straight clear answer about. Honestly i only pray for only three reasons. 1. I REALLY REALLY REALLY need something bad, or i feel the supernatural hair stand thing. 2. i "here and there" pray for the souls in purgartory when i'm about to hit the sack. 3. @ meal times( and it's only thanks to the influence of pang and gab that i only recently started to do that)
Sigh, Maybe i'll go try practice on my roof tomorrow at 9 am, at least i'll get a good well.... foot drive of how the floor will feel that day. Hot that is.
